a day to remember.......emo....sad.......=(

just came back from goin out..

today was a busy day for me i guess...
its full of emotions.....hehe

well this mornin went to church n had a farewell for Hsulynn....She is goin to further her studies in the Land Of Kiwis(New Zealand)..hehe...She is goin to study mass com....its so sad that she is leaving...i mean we had gone so close together n now she had to leave.....aih.....wish that time will not fly so fast...ish this has gone so emo...hehe=P

later after church we went to Soly's place to help him clean his hse... we took down all the curtains, put up new ones, sweep the floor, mopped it, n other stuffs hehe....b4 we even realise it, its already 10 o clock....we started at around 5 n woah!!!... the next moment its 10 dee ahaa well we had fun doin all that...the workin togetherness hahha=P

by 10 den went down to Melaka Raya...Friends coffee n tea hse....wif Hsulynn, Dayze, Soly n my bro...we ordered some expresso n food....haha kinda ok nia i mean the food..hehe..had a good laugh n chat there..=P den we went off to Klebang Besar....to d beach..hehe..took some funny pics den go home.....b4 we went back we wished Hsulynn farewell......=(

well i guess i can say i had lots of fun today....but at the same time feelin sad that Hsulynn is leavin n this is the last time i will be seein her b4 she go to nz.....

well Hsulynn...just wanna wish u......

ALL THE BEST N GOD BLESS..(",)

Midtermzzzz..........

updates....
hehe

been havin a busy week this week.... hehe feelin so tired now... can u imagine that havin 2 quizes in a day??=P well today i had applied maths quiz den later on durin prob n stat tutorial.... the lecturer suddenly ask is there any more questions den we said no n den she said quiz time hahhaa..... everyone was tryin to negotiate hehe but no choice hehe...hav to take it still =P
nway midterm is just around the corner....have to start studyin dee....been procrastinatin a lot lately or hmmmm alll the time hehe blek...midterm goin to start next week....but after tat i will be goin home....lookin forward to that hehe..cny...hope more ang pows this yr hehe

well luckily my drama is over dee....talkin bout that, i had my drama on tuesday.... all i can say is that we did our best lor hehee its kinda short come to think of it hehee..hope we can get good marks ehhee....n oh yeah durin my play, steph, aaron, tze seong, vijay, kok wei n justyne came to see my drama....i was so surprise hehe totaly din noe they r comin..so paiseh ler......haha well tonite louis is goin to have his drama....goin over to watch his drama..hehe think its a good wan better than mine ehhe....guess my group din put in much effort..hehe ish.....(regrettin.....sigh.... hahahaa =P)

haha i think tats all for now kua....hehe ep is now havin the foggin thingy hehe

ALL THE BEST N GOOD LUCK TO ALL THOSE WHO R TAKIN THEIR MIDTERMZ..hehe=P

~updated=P~

it seems like i have not updated my blog for a long time...
hehe sorry ppl...
been kinda lazy n busy at the same time these few weeks...
haha can say ever since i came back from penang hehe

been busy with NOC3 hehe
haha but now its over..=)
at the same time happy tats its over but at the same sad tat its over haha
haha cant wait for the next NOC..hehe=P

nway this is the blogspot for NOC
http://nightofcelebration.blogspot.com

i am goin to have my english drama next week.. hehe
luckily i am not in any big role..just small role....=P
but i have to like be the director as all my frens said since i have experience in actin in noc haha
well..hope tat it work out nicely n smoothly....=D

and oh yeah....
would like to say thanks to all my friends here in melaka
had fun celebratin my first birthday at home away from home..hehe=P
THANKS!!=)

btw..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMUEL!!=D

Just a simple gesture......

I got this from Sharon's friend blog.....it's a very touching and meaningful story....read it...hope u guys like it...=)

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.

This was the scene of ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.

Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life.

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.

Dew said, "You are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said, "Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls." Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so. I moved Dew's hands aside and said," You go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company." Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.

However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body.This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slight joking way, "suppose we divorce, what will you do?" She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that 'divorce' was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.

Once again, Dew said to me, "He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together." I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more. When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. "I've got something to tell you," I said.

She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. "I want to divorce." I raised a serious topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly , "why?". "I'm serious." I avoided her question. This so-called answer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, "you are not a man!".

At that night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew. With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month's time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, "He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?" This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, "I remember". "You carried me in your arms", she continued, "so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, youmust carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning."

I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. "No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce," she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, "daddy is holding mummy in his arms." His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, "Let us start from today, don't tell our son." I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face. On the third day, she whispered to me, "The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there."

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vaguer.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger.

I didn't tell Dew about this.

I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, "It seems not difficult to carry you now."

She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, "All my dresses have grown fatter." I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart.Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.

Our son came in at the moment. "Dad, it's time to carry mum out." He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, "Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old."

I held her tightly and said, "Both you and I didn't notice that our life was lack of such intimacy."

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, "Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious."

She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. "You got no fever." She said. I moved her hand off my head. "Sorry, Dew," I said, "I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you."

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into cry. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card. I smiled and wrote, "I'll carry you out every morning until we are old."

~GOD BLESS~ (",)