Just a simple gesture......

I got this from Sharon's friend blog.....it's a very touching and meaningful story....read it...hope u guys like it...=)

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.

This was the scene of ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.

Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life.

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.

Dew said, "You are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said, "Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls." Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so. I moved Dew's hands aside and said," You go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company." Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.

However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body.This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slight joking way, "suppose we divorce, what will you do?" She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that 'divorce' was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.

Once again, Dew said to me, "He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together." I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more. When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. "I've got something to tell you," I said.

She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. "I want to divorce." I raised a serious topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly , "why?". "I'm serious." I avoided her question. This so-called answer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, "you are not a man!".

At that night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew. With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month's time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, "He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?" This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, "I remember". "You carried me in your arms", she continued, "so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, youmust carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning."

I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. "No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce," she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, "daddy is holding mummy in his arms." His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, "Let us start from today, don't tell our son." I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face. On the third day, she whispered to me, "The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there."

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vaguer.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger.

I didn't tell Dew about this.

I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, "It seems not difficult to carry you now."

She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, "All my dresses have grown fatter." I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart.Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.

Our son came in at the moment. "Dad, it's time to carry mum out." He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, "Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old."

I held her tightly and said, "Both you and I didn't notice that our life was lack of such intimacy."

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, "Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious."

She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. "You got no fever." She said. I moved her hand off my head. "Sorry, Dew," I said, "I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you."

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into cry. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card. I smiled and wrote, "I'll carry you out every morning until we are old."

~GOD BLESS~ (",)

First day of exams.......CALCULUS.....aih...

had my calculus exam this morning...
wah the question super duper hard ler....
i manage to do 5 questions....(which is the required answer)
haha but a few of the sub question din finish ler... do half only....
b4 the time ends i was tryin to do some integration stuff....
just as i got the workin on how to do... the invigilator said time's up put ur pens down....
luckily i manage to write a few lines ler...
but dunno enuf or not..
hope can get a few marks....hehe

tomoro is my last day of exams....
left 2 more to to go...
physics and english....
feeling a bit tired now ler..
think wanna go sleep first den continue study later.....hehe

~chaoz~

haha i got KAKASHI???

Which Naruto Character are You?
quiz by orangeday.net

haha i dunno how but i got Kakashi hehe.........=P

Tired but fun.....(FUTSAL!!!!!)

just came back from playin futsal....
was playin wif Deric, Mark, Justin, Soly, Edmund, Louis, Affryl, Joash, Alan, Vijay, and Samuel
it was RM80 for an hour.....

i have not been kicking a ball for so long....haha
i am not a good player but its fun to play..hehe
guess practise or play more and my playing will be better..=P hehe
as the saying goes practise makes perfect......blek

before we started playin.. we realised that Affryl was wearing a sport shoes with lights at the bottom of the shoes....cool...
i have not seen that kind of shoes for a long time... haha
anyway while we are playin Affryl's soles came off...
in the end he has to play barefooted....
the funny thing is that in the early games when Affryl runs around u can see the lights keep lighting up.. hahaha..
later after playing for one hour we went to Subaidah to eat...

Nway had a lot of fun tonight...
feeling so sticky right now... haha
guess have to start studyin dee tomoro...
no more dilly dally dee.... serious stuff.... haha

'Thanks guys for inviting us to play'...=D"

MU won....Wohoo..!!!!=D

last nite Louis, Sullivan Alex, Dayze, Aaron and me went to Crayon cafe
we went there to watch the match between Man Utd and Newcastle
luckily we managed to find a table right in front of the big screen hehe=D
later halfway firsthalf Aaron n Dayze went back
left the three Man Utd supporter only hehehe.....

when Newcastle equalised, we only realised that most of the people there are Newcastle fans...
haha but we din care much hehehe.... we still cheer for Man Utd...=P
for those of u who din noe the results...
Man Utd-3 newcastle-1...............=D

hmm.. anyway i am supposed to be studyin now..
but the weather is so hot.....haha
feelin so lazy...=P
guess tomoro have to start studyin dee...
cannot procrastinate dee........hehehe

btw i have just put in a song in the background...
hope u guys enjoy it....=)
its 'Meant to Live' by Switchfoot....
this song reminded me of when PG165 played that at the battle of the bands....=)

~God Bless~

Things happen......=)

well..... i think its been quite a while since i update my blog..
it looks such a sad case..one entry nia...hehe

its only 8 sumthin rite now....
and i have NOC music practise at 9 ler..
since its kinda early still.. i tot of updatin lor....hehe=D

i think most of u all noe wat happen dee....
n i dun think i want to write bout it here.....
so for those of u who dun noe....
well...its ok if u guys ask me personally bout this......

nway....lifes been busy lately....
finals aproachin..... arh.....
physics n calculus......
need to practise for NOC too....hehe
the night itself is approachin...YEAH!!!!=)

i guess hav to get prepare dee for practise..hehe
hmm.. cant wait for the finals to be over n go back home......=D

~God Bless u all....(",)~

My 1st entry.....=D

Thursday (Oct 7)
went to watch movie wif cg
its kinda like more to cf outin hehe
coz 4 cgs combined....
we went to watch 'New Police Story'
i watch it b4 in my com dee
but nvm ler watch in cinema again....=P
its a vey nice movie...
haha the fighting scenes n all...
Jackie Chans movie wont be that borin wan lar... hehe
later aftermovie we went to eat 'char siew fan'=)

Friday (Oct 8)
manage to wake up for my 10 oclock class....haha=P
later in the afternoon went to JJ wif cp to buy stuff...
she bought most of the stuffs ler..
i din buy anythin though..hehe
den later we went to eat in nandos...
speakin of nandos...
i just remembered last time the last sem hols
i went back to Penang n ate nandos wif my friends
as louis n i hav eaten so wejust ordered a 1/4 chicken
while my friends ate the set wan...
later when we got the bill..my friend paid first...
we found out that they charge the 2 1/4 chicken for only RM6
haha i am so lucky..
get to eat it for only 3 bucks.. aha=P
nway back to JJ..
while we r eatin halfway, the electricity got cut off....
haha guess must be the electricity cable in JJ is faulty...
or they din pay the bills.. ahaah=P

Saturday (Oct 9)
din hav much plans today ler...
den stef said go to eat chendol wif Kamini..
so went out wif the FARTS ppl tat day....
we went to the chendol shop at jonker street...(did i spell it right?haha)
later we went to Grace's hse..
Grace's house is sooooooooo nice.... haha
it seems like everythin is so complete in the hse hehe
there is even a 21 inch tv there n ASTRO....
wow!!!!! hahha=P
den Grace taught us how to do some cross stitch thingy
its kinda nice though doin this stuff.. ahha
but its kinda time consuming lar....need lots of patience.. ehe
but nway doin this to raise funds....=D
enjoy myself doin cross stitch.. ahha=P

Sunday (Oct 10)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRACE!!=)
went to church in the mornin...
den later came back n study......
at nite got mission trip meeting....
n we have to speak in malay when we r there.. haha
must start practising haha
left my malay when i leave my high school..hehehe

Monday (Oct 11)
nuthin much happen on monday ler....
go class come back lor..
at nite i got NOC3 music practise..
reality starts to sink in me that we dun hav much time left to practise for noc..
so need to really pray n work hard for it..=)
den came back n study my physics....

i guess i hav written quite a lot dee....
sorry for such a long entry hehe
my class supposed to end at 10 but we ended bout 920...
so i hav time till 11 which is my next class....=D
hm... tomoro physics test..
am i ready for it already?.....(i duno=P)

guess i must get ready for my class now...=)
tonite got CF.. yeah!!!
NOC 2vcd comin out today...wohoo....=D

~God Bless~